I did want to buy us more time, too, but that wasn't the main reason.
[ She's silent for a moment, and then she shuts her eyes almost in frustration. When she opens her eyes again, she looks off to the side, not unlike a certain someone whom she's about to mention. ]
I don't know how much you've talked to Tomioka-san, or if he's said anything about what he does at home, but— even if I'm no stranger to killing, I can't easily bring myself to kill anyone that I consider an innocent.
[ And Yu is someone she did and does consider an innocent. ]
... His past and his world are business, so no, I never pressed.
[Sanji is... fond of Giyuu, perhaps to the surprise of some, but he's still a man who takes careful mark of boundaries. Giyuu isn't "his" -- not one of his crew, not nakama, perhaps not even a friend, and so Sanji keeps his questions to himself.
But that said:]
What you're telling me is your main reason was worth twisting that principle, eh?
We slay demons, who kill and eat humans indiscriminately.
[ It's something that's easily justifiable to Shinobu to kill those who only aim to harm others. ]
And aren't your lives worth more than my morals and principles?
[ Even if what she wants at her very core is only to save lives. To take a life she also wanted to save isn't something she can easily pardon. Even if it's something she chose to do, it's not something she's forgiven herself for. ]
[Even without asking, Sanji can feel that there's probably a very sad story lurking behind her casual remark, and his previously neutral expression pinches with sympathy]
I'm, uh... probably not the best person to ask that.
[...]
We all got shit we need to get back to. I wanna go home to my crew. Yasusada wants his Master to live. That's what makes these shitty-ass games so cruel -- if we can't find a happy ending to it all, it means we have to decide if our morals and principles are worth trampling over others for.
[It's simply the way it is, is what Sanji is saying. They can beat themselves up if they want to, but it doesn't change the core problem; that this system is rigged to determine who among them are selfish enough to take what they want when there's no other options]
[ She remembers Yasusada's explanation and how he just said, it might be you were like me, and just lookin' to keep the game afloat.
How much can she judge from the position she's in? ]
That's true enough. Your answer led you and Yasusada-san to choose Yin Yu-san for one reason or another. We're all being led to do one terrible thing after another.
[ It's like they're supposed to suffer, and she hates it. ]
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Gotcha.
-- I was just bein' nosy and trying to feel out if you had a role -- which, don't get me wrong, I know you can't say shit even if you did.
But it might be you were like me, and just lookin' to keep the game afloat.
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I did want to buy us more time, too, but that wasn't the main reason.
[ She's silent for a moment, and then she shuts her eyes almost in frustration. When she opens her eyes again, she looks off to the side, not unlike a certain someone whom she's about to mention. ]
I don't know how much you've talked to Tomioka-san, or if he's said anything about what he does at home, but— even if I'm no stranger to killing, I can't easily bring myself to kill anyone that I consider an innocent.
[ And Yu is someone she did and does consider an innocent. ]
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[Sanji is... fond of Giyuu, perhaps to the surprise of some, but he's still a man who takes careful mark of boundaries. Giyuu isn't "his" -- not one of his crew, not nakama, perhaps not even a friend, and so Sanji keeps his questions to himself.
But that said:]
What you're telling me is your main reason was worth twisting that principle, eh?
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[ It's something that's easily justifiable to Shinobu to kill those who only aim to harm others. ]
And aren't your lives worth more than my morals and principles?
[ Even if what she wants at her very core is only to save lives. To take a life she also wanted to save isn't something she can easily pardon. Even if it's something she chose to do, it's not something she's forgiven herself for. ]
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I'm, uh... probably not the best person to ask that.
[...]
We all got shit we need to get back to. I wanna go home to my crew. Yasusada wants his Master to live. That's what makes these shitty-ass games so cruel -- if we can't find a happy ending to it all, it means we have to decide if our morals and principles are worth trampling over others for.
[It's simply the way it is, is what Sanji is saying. They can beat themselves up if they want to, but it doesn't change the core problem; that this system is rigged to determine who among them are selfish enough to take what they want when there's no other options]
And everyone's gonna come to a different answer.
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How much can she judge from the position she's in? ]
That's true enough. Your answer led you and Yasusada-san to choose Yin Yu-san for one reason or another. We're all being led to do one terrible thing after another.
[ It's like they're supposed to suffer, and she hates it. ]
Will you tell me about your crew?