[Rin stares at himself too. He tries to remember what he was thinking and feeling in that moment, but it's not coming to him. Shame, perhaps? It had a lot to do with shame that he put everyone in danger and that things got messed up so bad despite his best intentions. It was really for that reason that he angrily suffered the insults as long as he did and he hangs his head a bit now for that. At least he did for a while. He's going to lose his temper pretty soon in this memory. He actually waits for it now because it'll be better to see that than this first part.
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...Arthur's clothes are still really stupid.]