...I know you won't agree, but I would rather it be me than you.
[He says it with nothing but honesty in his tone. It probably isn't a surprise. The words he spoke back then, Being left behind by everyone... it's not a feeling I ever wanted him to know, still remain true. Yasusada is a sword, and hundreds of years spent alone can't be unlearned so quickly. Most likely, he will always prefer to be the one who isn't left picking up the pieces.
It's more than that, though. Sanji is better with people. He's smart, and honorable, but willing to do what needs to be done. Yasusada isn't very good at looking at things objectively, but it seems obvious, that Sanji is a much more valuable person to keep around.
But it's because of that that he's so certain about his own words. If Sanji asked him to let himself be set up, he would agree--but the chances of that ever happening, he thinks, are next to zero. ...Still, at least if that happened, Sanji would go out on his own terms. There's something powerful about being able to make that choice, isn't there?]
...Or someone was simply willing to do it from the start. [Perhaps the "winner takes all" plan is enough to convince someone to act. It's difficult to say.] I can't say I wouldn't consider it, if I trusted the directors more.
[Which Sanji probably knew already, too. But as it stands, like he's said before, there's too much going on that doesn't add up. He isn't willing to make a choice that would upset everyone (including Okita, wherever he is) when they have so little information. The potential for trickery is far too high.]
... Even as he also recognizes it's his own selfish need to repent that has him looking at the other, expression pinched between concern and dissent. He can objectively agree that between the two of them, Sanji can do more work on this side -- and maybe one day he'll (again) even be put in a position where he'll have to act upon that ugly truth.
But that moment isn't today, and so he allows himself to be greedy and tired of how games are only won when you sacrifice your pawns.]
Oi, you're not alone... the set-up means there's a lot riding on all of us. The ones we left back in the castle--
[Assuming they can take the counselor at their words, then... there is no happy ending for them here. Things will get ugly, quickly, as they all scramble to save the people they care for most.]
... I know I keep repeating myself, and it's not a satisfying way to be, but we just gotta take it slow for now. Trust me when I say I'm working on figuring out what's going on, for everyone's sake.
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[He says it with nothing but honesty in his tone. It probably isn't a surprise. The words he spoke back then, Being left behind by everyone... it's not a feeling I ever wanted him to know, still remain true. Yasusada is a sword, and hundreds of years spent alone can't be unlearned so quickly. Most likely, he will always prefer to be the one who isn't left picking up the pieces.
It's more than that, though. Sanji is better with people. He's smart, and honorable, but willing to do what needs to be done. Yasusada isn't very good at looking at things objectively, but it seems obvious, that Sanji is a much more valuable person to keep around.
But it's because of that that he's so certain about his own words. If Sanji asked him to let himself be set up, he would agree--but the chances of that ever happening, he thinks, are next to zero. ...Still, at least if that happened, Sanji would go out on his own terms. There's something powerful about being able to make that choice, isn't there?]
...Or someone was simply willing to do it from the start. [Perhaps the "winner takes all" plan is enough to convince someone to act. It's difficult to say.] I can't say I wouldn't consider it, if I trusted the directors more.
[Which Sanji probably knew already, too. But as it stands, like he's said before, there's too much going on that doesn't add up. He isn't willing to make a choice that would upset everyone (including Okita, wherever he is) when they have so little information. The potential for trickery is far too high.]
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... Even as he also recognizes it's his own selfish need to repent that has him looking at the other, expression pinched between concern and dissent. He can objectively agree that between the two of them, Sanji can do more work on this side -- and maybe one day he'll (again) even be put in a position where he'll have to act upon that ugly truth.
But that moment isn't today, and so he allows himself to be greedy and tired of how games are only won when you sacrifice your pawns.]
Oi, you're not alone... the set-up means there's a lot riding on all of us. The ones we left back in the castle--
[Assuming they can take the counselor at their words, then... there is no happy ending for them here. Things will get ugly, quickly, as they all scramble to save the people they care for most.]
... I know I keep repeating myself, and it's not a satisfying way to be, but we just gotta take it slow for now. Trust me when I say I'm working on figuring out what's going on, for everyone's sake.